Scripture: When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me; (1 Cor. 13:11 NIV).
I am new to blogging but not to writing. As a child, I loved to read, write and tell stories. I would even makeup stories and live them through my dolls, just as if they were real.
Fast-forward to my freshman year of high school, I joined the school newspaper staff. I was so excited and could hardly wait for my first article to be published. I don’t remember the title because it was ago, but I do remember the excitement that I felt.
I could hardly wait to get to school that morning. I rushed to my classroom and I took my seat. I had a huge smile on my face as the teacher handed out copies of the newspaper. With excitement, I searched for my article. I was so happy and proud at that moment! But suddenly my eyes spotted my name in another article. As I started reading it, I could not believe it, it was a “mean girls” article written about ME! It seemed that the boy that this girl liked, liked me. Now I ask you, how immature was that! It was the typical “He’s my boyfriend. I don’t like her” high school drama. Not a big deal, right? WRONG!
I was embarrassed and hurt. Here I was taking this class to learn the aspects of the business, with the hopes of writing meaningful stories, with the goal of becoming a reporter. I’m reminded of a scene in the movie “Mean Girls” starring Lindsay Lohan. This movie was about a group of superficial girls who found pleasure in being really mean to their classmates (hence, my theme). I recall a particular scene where the mean girls pranked another girl and everyone was waiting in the school cafeteria to see the pain and embarrassment that was intended to be inflicted upon her. Well, I surely knew what that pain felt like. I experienced that first hand! My classmates knew that the article was written about me; everyone knew except me.
After I read it I could see that everyone was watching to see my reaction. However, I played it cool, but after school, I immediately ran home feeling embarrassed. I let my feelings get in the way of my passion, and needless to say, I quit the paper. It all happened so quickly; it was at this point that in my mind I allowed misconceptions to form about writing. I didn’t understand the freedom of speech. I mean, I knew about the Fifth Amendment, but I didn’t think anyone would take an interest in writing anything about me. My pride, my first high school crush, and my embarrassment did not allow me to continue. I dropped the class and I never looked back.
I quickly decided my next step. I replaced my journalism class with a home economics class. I thought to myself, “I’ll learn to cook, that should be easy and fun.” From that point on, I did continue writing but only at home in the privacy of my bedroom. I wrote about a little of this and a lot of that, but I wasn’t really taking my writing seriously, it was just something that I did as an escape. After that, other interest came into play and I placed my writings on the shelf. I became a participant in the game of life and growing up was my objective.
Well, that was then and this is now. Today is a brand new day and old things have passed away, at least that’s what I thought. As a new blogger, those old feelings have resurfaced. My original passion has been rediscovered; that gift that God placed in me before the foundations of the world have returned. I remember how much joy writing gave me and coupled with my very first love, Jesus Christ, the two has become one in my heart. I love to write about the one who loved me first and saved me from my sins. This was the greatest lesson that I have ever learned. Just because you have forgotten about something that may have hurt you long ago, it does not mean that God has forgotten about it. If He put a gift in you He intends for you to use it. It doesn’t matter how long it’s been or how hard you may have tried to suppress it. The gift will always remain inside of you.
God has a purpose for everything under the sun, and that includes you and your gifts. It has been a very long time, and I may have got off to a rocky start, but my confidence is back. With dedication, hard work and creativity, I proudly proclaim that I am ready to write again. I would like to inform those who haven’t discovered their purpose to search within. That “thing” that you love to do… You know, that “thing” which comes natural and easy for you. That “thing” is your passion and your purpose is in your passion. I urge you to search your heart and discover the gifts hidden within you. I did and I rediscovered the purpose for my passion all over again. Now it’s a new day and I’m doing an original thing brought back to me by the Author and Sustainer of Life. Your breakthrough will come when you discover your purpose, give yourself to the area that you love and God will guide you to your destiny.
***If you haven’t seen the movie “Mean Girls” I have provided the link for your viewing click here
Much love and many blessings,